You are my all in all

Yes LORD You are my strength.
Tomorrow will be the beginning of my busy lifestyle.
But, I will never let busy take down my time with God.

Bible stated:

For i know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD,

plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11

Everyday, every breathe you take in is a blessing from God.
So, everyday, we must be thankful.
A happy life starts from appreciation of what we have.
At least, each night before sleep, think of a thing that God has given to us that day; pray and thank Him.
Because You are my all in all. =)

Never be the same again

Today, I miss my mom a lot.
Thought of tomorrow, I'm going back to uni.
Feels like a bit lost in my study.
Lost in direction.
How's my next sem will be? Worried.

I still remembered since kindergarden my mom was so strict to me.
If I can't spell all the spelling correct, I was not allowed to sleep.
That time seeing everyone is in bed already, living room was so silent and lonely.
I'm scared and I will try hardest to remember.
And i still remembered her with a ruler teaching me to write neatly. Don't be lazy.

My mom is always the one who give me the power and will to study.
Everytime when result is going to released, I was scared that I will upset her, disappoint her.
But, next sem, who will be the one whom I will tell when I got my result?
Who will be the one who will encourage me to try harder?
and who will be praising me when I got improvements?
Who will be video calling me everyday? and nag me when saw me play FB games?

Its never the same again.
Agreed with my aunt that it already passed and nothing can make it back.
We should accept the fact.
But, the fact is it will never be the same again.
Feelings.

福

在新年的来临，我们都希望新的一年

事事顺利，福到，财到。

那怎样才能得到福呢？

神经记载：

馬 太 福 音 5：3-11

  ³ 虛 心 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 天 國 是 他 們 的 。

 ⁴ 哀 慟 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 他 們 必 得 安 慰 。

 ⁵ 溫 柔 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 他 們 必 承 受 地 土 。

 ⁶ 飢 渴 慕 義 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 他 們 必 得 飽 足 。

 ⁷ 憐 恤 人 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 他 們 必 蒙 憐 恤 。

 ⁸ 清 心 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 他 們 必 得 見 神 。

 ⁹ 使 人 和 睦 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 他 們 必 稱 為 神 的 兒 子 。

 ¹⁰ 為 義 受 逼 迫 的 人 有 福 了 ！ 因 為 天 國 是 他 們 的 。

 ¹¹ 人 若 因 我 辱 罵 你 們 ， 逼 迫 你 們 ， 捏 造 各 樣 壞 話 毀 謗 你 們 ， 你 們 就 有 福 了 ！

这是我在诗巫时，在教会听牧师说的。很有意义。值得思考。 =)

把这些神给的福气带回家一起过年吧! 

把它当成今年的目标。福到临门。哈哈。

cake Cake CAKE~ :D

Its baking day today.

Whole house full of horlick and coffee smell.

Makes me this coffee-lover feels like I want to have a bite before it is finish baked yet.

This is the first time I bake and steam cake on my own.

Trying out whether bake or steam horlick-coffee cake will be nicer. Haha.

Missed the time when mom and I make cakes for Chinese New Year every year before this.

The process was a lot of fun.

Especially when mom and I are separating the egg yolk and egg white.

Its a challenging task. Haha.

I still remember when i'm still a kid, I will put my nose beside when mom is beating the butter with sugar using the mixer machine.

Now, I am the one holding the machine with the same smell of sweet yummy puffy white cream.

Time change and things will tend to change too.

but, the feeling of baking with mommy will never change.

I am still very clumsy.

Got blisters accompany me pass Chinese New Year. :P

Tired~ *Yawn*

分离

分离
我忘不了
当日的欢笑
当日离别的轻愁
回忆着   追寻着
任物星移换
一切始终会过去

舍不得的太多
放得下的太少
时间不会在这一秒下一秒停留
我也不会在这一秒下一秒等待

缘份
终须拿得起，放得下……

End

You told me to hold on to my principle.

But, do you know what is my principle?

I did hold on to my principle and did not argue with you.

"What causes fights and quarrels among you? 

Don't they came from your desires that battle within you?

You want something but don't get it. 

You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want.

You quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God.

When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spent what you get on pleasures." - James 4:1-3

Although I do get angry, it doesn't mean I want to argue with you.

Because I don't like argument and you know it.
Even if I do win the arguments, what does it means?
It brings nothing but just a short period of happiness of winning and a scar forever.

I hope when you write so many "Lol" in your last message is the feeling you really is now.

Although this relationship ended here, I still learn a lot of things.

and I hope you did too. =)

其实，每一段感情， 它们都会有收获的。

这些收获可能是一些美好的回忆，甚至是婚姻。

就算最后的结果是再见，我们还是会有收获的 - 更加认清我们自己。

something to ponder:

As if there is tomorrow

Today, I was nearly died. True.
I put the wrong gear when I was driving to cross a road.
And the car driving on the straight road was fast.
Because of putting the wrong gear and the car mati engine.
I was stop in the middle of the road.
Was so nervous. Does not know what to do.
But, thanks to God that I am still alive to write this post.
The car stop on time before crash into my car.
Then I start my car and start drive away.
I was really shocked at that time.

Have you ever think whether if the next second, you will be dead?
What have you achieve in this whole life?
What are the things that you have not try or do?
What is the last thing you will regret?

My mind was blank when the car nearly crash into me.
Feeling like this life every minute every second is wasted.
I did not fulfill the purpose of me in this world.
That time I really don't know if I die, how I will face God.
But, God gave me a second chance.
Thanks God.

I spent my whole life until now, seeking for knowledge.
But, I know God is the most knowledgeable One. He is the source of knowledge.
Why I did not seek Him more than knowledge?

I spent my time searching for more friends and also love.
But, God is the most important and most trusted friend in the world.
His love is so great, nothing can describe His love for us.
His love for us is different from anyone in this world can give us. His love never end.

I spent my days to play games, eat food that are yummy.
But, God said before that "we are in this world but not of this world".
I was greatly engulf by this world's temptation and goodness.
Far away from the world that I should be at - Heaven with God.

Pondering this for the whole morning.
I realized I live in this world as if there is tomorrow...

I pray that out of glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. - Ephesians 3:16-21 

For my dearest Daddy

The man who love me the most is always my dearest daddy.

Even going for trip, he still keep on message and call back to check on us.

Saw his place raining, will call and ask here got rain or not.

Night time, will ask we got double check that all doors and windows are locked?
When he is eating, he will call back and ask cooked already? Eaten Already?

He knew I only eat drumstick of a chicken so, when he saw chicken meat, sure he will say breast meat also nice what, why you so choosy only eat drumstick. Then left drumstick for me. :P

Saw I haven't sleep, then he keep nagging me don't sleep too late and ended up he's sleeping on the sofa upstairs waiting me to go to bed.

When I'm not feeling well, he sure will do all the cookings without any complain.

Sometimes, we didn't realize these small lil gestures in life.

In busy time, we may even find nagging annoying.

But, we should learn how to appreciate it before it is gone.

Remember: Don't take things for granted. =)

All that I can see when lying in bed

The clouds are moving at high speed today.

Sky changes very fast.
unpredictable.

What do you understand from these two pictures?

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I saw lots of cotton candy that looks so yummy~ :D

My bed and my room is the best place for me to think over things.

Quiet and no disturbance.

In your anger do not sin;

when you are on your beds,

search your hearts and be silent. - Psalm 4:4

Communication

Today, someone said something that broke my heart.
I know I may think things differently or in specific, different perspective than you.
But, different people have different way of thinking.

Today's incident make me realized that communication is a very important thing in our daily life to convey our idea and our thoughts.
Actually, there are a lot of ways to communicate.
In a conversation, there are words that will hurt people and there are words that will help people.
It all depends on what words you choose to convey your message.

"Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing." - Proverbs 12:18

Saying something sarcastic is full of impact but it does not necessary to be accepted by the listener. Once its not accepted, it will goes to zero.
How bout saying something that can be accepted in order to have the impact?

Feelings also affect communication. When ones lost his/her patience, the communication/conversation will directly cut to an end. I admit I have a very serious bad habit which is I tend to start cold war when someone hurt me. People who understands me will know I seldom get angry but if I got angry, I will ignore that person for quite some time. Surely, its not a good experience. But, to me, I think get away from the situation and person is a good thing to do. So that I can think the problem thoroughly. Calm myself down then consider the points and decide. Continue talking in that situation is not going to be good as more 'explosive' words will be said to defend oneself when emotions running in.

Remember, words that are spoken can't be taken back, so think before saying anything. =)

Lastly, something to ponder:

"But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control. Against such things there is no law." - Galatians 5:22-23

I hope one day I can have better patience.

For the 2 most important man in my life :D

Finally, I finished sewing them.
This is for the two men who is always talking bout hand phones, electronic stuffs etc that I don't know anything bout. Haha.

I just realized I can buy lots of presents for my lil sis every year but I seldom give anything to the 2 men who love me the most in this world - my daddy & brother.
So, I thought of doing a small gift. Hehe.

This is first time I do cross stitch as hand phone pouches.

Erm...I guess by the look still can pass larh. :P

My holiday can be counted as not totally wasted. Haha.

At least, I had improved a lil bit of my skill, learnt how to do french knots as well as lazy daisy stitch online.

And, I found many free cross stitch patterns online. =)

But, feel so stupid because I don't know how to use sewing machine.

Hands and legs cannot coordinate. So stupid hor. haiz.

So, had to sew it by hand til my fingers pain.

Seeeeeeee, the line is not as straight as sewing machine can do. >~<

So happy when daddy bring me to fabric shop last week.

Bought new cross stitch cloth and added few more new colors. ^^

I want to go again.......

I want to hunt for colorful buttons and brads~~~ :D

Tired day

5am - wake up and do waffles for breakfast.

Its strawberry flavored waffles.

1st time do pinky waffles. Haha.

Then, followed by having a short jog in millennium park around 6.45am.

cold and chill weather makes me feel afresh.

But,

I was tired before I can finished ran 3 rounds.

Got one aunty can jog more than me.

So no face!

Never mind, I won't give up.

I will continue training.

Haha.

After jog, it's time to sweep car porch and annual cleaning of shoe racks.

Now got more space for new shoes. XD

Then, a lot more things to do in the rest of my day.

Wash toilet.

Collect CNY cookies.

Take my medical report.

Buy some stuffs.

visit cloth shop.

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Maybe because my holiday is going to end.

So, must make good use of my time.

Holiday, please don't end so fast.

I want to stay at home longer.

Morning

Morning world!

A new day, a new start.

A new day, a lot of things come to our mind. What we should do, when does this due, etc.

How your day turns into depends on your choice.

If you want it to be happy, make it.

If you want it to be unhappy, be it.

Chinese idioms state that happy is one day, unhappy is also one day.

So, let us happily welcome this new day.

Appreciate is the beginning of happiness~ ^^

Chinese Chess? or Mooncake?

Guess what is this? Haha. 

Chinese chess made of mooncake.

This photos was taken in the year 2009 mooncake festival at midvalley KL.

Playing Chinese Chess is my hobby.

And lots of my nice memories were related to playing Chinese chess.

Look delicious right?
Playing this sure does not need to worry if you got hungry.
because if you win, you may have one. XD

Year End Family Trip As Usual

Bukit Bintang area in Kuala Lumpur is a shopping heaven.
Sungei Wang, Time Square, Lot 10, Pavillion etc.
Think of it, high heels, dresses, blouses & skirts will "poof" come into my mind.

In fact, when a girl went shopping, there is no word as tired in her dictionary. Haha.
Especially when it is year end sale. wheeeeeeeeee~
That's why you can see shops like OSIM or OGAWA in the shopping mall.
I remembered when my mom and I were tired when shopping, we sure will come to the massage chair.
In few minutes, your legs will feel like they are new one.

Happy Shopping~ ^^
This was taken during my family trip to KL in Dec 2009.

Tomorrow

This was taken in chemistry lab.

Enjoying playing with it.

Connect it, calculate the bonds and name it.
Ended up I was the last person came out of that lab. Haha.

Actually, I like chemistry among all my subjects during my secondary school.

So, that why I chose to put chemical engineering as my first choice.

Yet, thinking back, that was my last time playing with chemistry.

Engineering focus more on calculations and physics. that why don't being tricked by the word "chemical" in front. Engineers still are engineers.

I still haven't decide which major should I take out of that 5 choices.

Haha.

Maybe until final year then I will be clear of what path I should take.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matthew 6:34

Sunset

This is Tanjung Batu beach in Bintulu. 

This was taken in the evening when I was bringing a friend around Bintulu.

So nice to see the sky, sea and the sun.

It makes me feel very peaceful especially when the waves are so small.

Everyone like sunsets. It is beautiful.
But, sunset is just like happy moments in life - short.

That's why we should appreciate everything that we have and had just like enjoying the moments of sunset.

Besides, we can't see the end of the sea, everything is unpredictable.

Life is full of unpredictable ups and downs. 

Yet, remember, God is always with you no matter what happens.

"And surely I am with you always..." Matthew 28:20

1.1.2012

First day of the year, wish you all a happy new year 2012. 

This is my first post in this blog. 

I hope I can share a lil bit of my life as well as the meaningful memories in my life. 

I live in Bintulu, a small industrial town which actually was a fishing village. 

I grown up here and it has been more than 20 years I'm in Bintulu. 

Although now I'm pursuing my studies as a future chemical engineer at other people's land, I still miss my hometown. 

These are the photos I took after waited for more than half an hour. 

well, I'm a quiet girl in a stranger's eye. More to introvert kinda girl. 

And most of all, my English is poor. Haha. 

So, if anything that I wrote offended you guys, I'm sorry.

As you can see from the photos, I like photography but I'm not very good at it.

Photography is meaningful to me because it captures all the moments that I want to remember in my life.

So, bear with me for the poor quality as I only have a phone equipped with camera.

Lastly, thanks for reading my blog. Happy blogging~ ^^