Never be the same again

Today, I miss my mom a lot.
Thought of tomorrow, I'm going back to uni.
Feels like a bit lost in my study.
Lost in direction.
How's my next sem will be? Worried.

I still remembered since kindergarden my mom was so strict to me.
If I can't spell all the spelling correct, I was not allowed to sleep.
That time seeing everyone is in bed already, living room was so silent and lonely.
I'm scared and I will try hardest to remember.
And i still remembered her with a ruler teaching me to write neatly. Don't be lazy.

My mom is always the one who give me the power and will to study.
Everytime when result is going to released, I was scared that I will upset her, disappoint her.
But, next sem, who will be the one whom I will tell when I got my result?
Who will be the one who will encourage me to try harder?
and who will be praising me when I got improvements?
Who will be video calling me everyday? and nag me when saw me play FB games?

Its never the same again.
Agreed with my aunt that it already passed and nothing can make it back.
We should accept the fact.
But, the fact is it will never be the same again.
Feelings.